What a difficult time we are going through. Yesterday was the second funeral in one month that we attended for a family member. On Tuesday, between the two wakes, we went back to my brother’s home and while we were there we turned on the television to find out the horrendous news of what happened in Boston. Initially we were all stunned and shocked to see what happened. We were all so sad to begin with and this news just seemed so senseless. As more and more information came in, it just became so much more horrific.
Questions kept running through my mind,
· Where is the reasoning behind all of this?
· Why do bad things happen to good people?
· How will these families get past this?
I know how incredibly sad we all are right now and how difficult it has been for us. Francine’s death was tragic and unexpected. My mom had been ill and even still, her death came as a surprise to us. No one is every ready. I question why God allows things like this to happen. In Francine’s eulogy, I said that God must have a plan. I wish I knew what it was. It does not make this any easier but how do we just move on from here? Do we try to move on and become “normal” again? Is there really any normal anymore? Our children are seeing so much violence and no matter how much we try to protect them from it, I fear that they will become desensitized to it.
Our family has received prayers and support of hundreds of people and that is getting us through it. The victims of the tragedy in Boston are receiving prayers, well wishes and kind gestures from all over the world. We can only hope that these prove to be reminders that there is more good in the world and we can overcome this senselessness and find a light in the midst of darkness.
In this difficult time, we need to look for what is good in our lives even in the midst of tragedy. It seems like a very hard task but unfortunately good and bad exist everyday and we need to concentrate on the good. Make positive choices and spend time with people that you love and care about. Let them know how much they mean to you. Unfortunately our family learned that life can change in an instant, and if we do not take the opportunity to live life to the fullest now, we might just lose out.