Today, I got a bit sad and even disappointed with myself when I realized just how long it has been since I have actually written. I went to our public library, where I met with the head librarian of the children’s room. Months ago, we had talked about starting a program this summer that could encourage kindness and paying it forward.
We both seemed to have lost track of time and finally got a chance to meet this afternoon. She introduced me to another librarian there and when she began to tell her about my kindness blog, I realized just how far off track I had fallen. Writing everyday, gave me structure and routine. I did it even when I had little to say. Giving myself some slack has made me way too relaxed and although I have been very busy with school and helping DJ get ready for graduation and prepared for college, I felt a little badly about it today. Guilty even. A lot has happened in these weeks where I didn’t write. Nothing life changing for us, nothing catastrophic – but we’ve been ever so busy.
There was a weapon brought to Drew AND DJ’s school last week and I still haven’t been able to comprehend just what a tragedy it could have been. This might have to be a blog in itself – when I am ready to think about it more clearly.
This is a month I should be writing! A month to remember all of the firsts in DJ’s life with graduation and college awaiting him. A month where we lost a very important member of our community to brain cancer. A month where a good friend of ours was diagnosed with breast cancer.
I have decided to take a class and see if I am ready to pursue my Masters Degree. If it goes smoothly, I will be busier than I already am, but the result will be worth it! I had my best month yet with my chloe and isabel jewelry business and if I can keep that up – I can help to pay for some courses!!
Yesterday a ladybug landed on me while I was driving. I know to some people that is considered to be lucky. The first thing I thought of when it landed was how how I’d incorporate it into my blog. So many little things so many big things….I am going to make another attempt at it.
I need to be writing – maybe not everyday, but I need to write. It grounds me, centers me and keeps me focused.