Happy Birthday Mom

No one loved to celebrate birthdays more than my mom so it is fitting that since today is her birthday, we all go out and celebrate in her honor! We will head to The Reservoir of course….it was her favorite restaurant.  Twenty of us getting together to celebrate her.

I had considered going to the cemetery to visit with her today. I am not a big fan of where she is buried. The cemetery itself is beautiful, but she is in a mausoleum and I don’t like the coldness of it. The artificial flowers and forced air don’t make me feel welcome and I don’t find myself going as often as I feel I should. Instead, yesterday, I went to her bench in the park. It is my peaceful spot to go when I am missing her or feeling sad. A bunny and a butterfly where right beside the bench when I arrived. More signs from mom? Maybe… Regardless, it made me feel like she knew I was there. I sat for a bit and wished her a happy day. It is the same place where we have released balloons for her birthday in the past.  I hope you have caught some of those yellow balloons and are celebrating up in heaven. We miss you!

 

Happy Birthday Mom

Today would have been my mom’s 68^th birthday.  I am sure that we would have been celebrating together with dinner and cake had she still been here with us.  So tonight we are going up to my aunt and uncle’s home so that we can  all be together to celebrate her.

I recently came across the prayer card that was given out at her wake.  Drew carries it in his back pocket at his baseball games.  I don’t think I ever took the time to actually read all of the words but it says,

As I sit in Heaven and watch you everyday,

I try to let you know with signs that I never went away.

I hear you when you’re laughing,

And watch you as you sleep,

I even place my arms around you

To calm you when you weep.

I see you wish the days away,

Begging to have me home,

So I try to send you signs

So you know you’re not alone.

Don’t feel guilty that you have life that was denied to me,

Heaven is truly beautiful

Just you wait and see.

So live life, laugh again, enjoy your self be free.

Then know with every breath you take,

You’ll be taking one for me.

We are all seeing signs of mom everywhere, from the pennies we find on the ground, to the yellow butterflies that keep soaring above our heads this summer.  Wherever we go, there are reminders of her.  I miss her everyday, but the last two lines of the poem give me comfort.  Knowing how much trouble she had breathing on her own due to her COPD, I am confident that she is breathing freely now, enjoying the fragrance of heaven.  I am sure that she is with us and watching over us every day.

Happy Birthday Mom.  I love you.  I miss you.  I think of you everyday!