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Tried Something New

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Anyone who knows me, knows that I am addicted to kickboxing.  I take to two classes a week and I lead one on Sunday.  It is more of a strength building kickboxing class than a dancing/cardio type.  I love it.  I have been doing it for three years.  I am going to keep on doing it, but I felt like it was time to add something new to my routine.  I still walk four miles a day two or three times a week.  It used to be five days a week, but my walking partner is not able to go as often and I am not as motivated to go on my own.  The biggest problem I have with exercising is finding the time.  With the walking, it is not difficult because we leave at five in the morning and are back by six.  No one is even awake at my house so I feel no guilt.  There is no reason for feeling guilty…I know this, but when everyone is up and awake and homework needs to be done, or dinner prepared, I just feel like there are too many priorities that need to come first.  Dave and I have both built exercise into our lives.  For him, it is soccer and we make sure that we both find time each week to fit it in to our routines.  It is good for us.  Exercise keeps us balanced, fit and healthy.  I hope that it is also a good thing for our kids to see, knowing that we are active and we do it so that we can maintain healthier life styles.

Since I have been exercising every day of the week, I really did not want to give it up even though I don’t have my walking partner everyday anymore.  I was trying to figure out what else to do.  Another friend of mine tried a Spinning class a few weeks ago and has been trying to get me to go.  I have been hesitant.  I really doubted that I’d be able to keep up with the class.  Today, I tried a class.  I let the instructor know that this was totally new for me and that I wasn’t sure I’d be able to keep up.  She made sure that I knew that I could totally go at my own pace and to take it to whatever level I was able to do.  The class was a really small one – which I was happy about, just three of us.  Unfortunately for me, the other two were gorgeous seventeen year old girls in amazing shape.  I knew I’d never be able to keep up with them.  I was right.  I did my best though.  I just kept it at my own pace and tried to do everything that the instructor was telling me to do.  I could not keep up with them, but I never stopped.  More than once I thought I was going to throw up!  Half way through the class, I decided that I was never coming back!!  Still, I was determined to make it through the whole class.

During the cool down, the instructor praised me – and I laughed and said that I could not keep up with her!  She told me that when she started, she felt the same way.  She told me not to give up after the first class.  I am still thinking about it.  I’d love to build up enough endurance to do one or two of those classes a week, along with my kickboxing!  I just am not sure if I can do it!   I will admit, I really wanted to love it.  I didn’t.  Dave reminded me that I thought Kickboxing was super challenging when I began, so maybe there’s a chance.  I will go again and see what happens.  If I like it great.  If I don’t,  I will keep looking.  I don’t have to commit to anything.

I laughed out loud at the end of the class when one of the 17 year old girls said to me, “Props to you for hanging in!  My mom would not have been able to do it!”   I am not sure how I felt about that comment…proud that I (sort of,) kept up with these young girls, or super old knowing that I was older than the two of them put together!

Headache Free – will it last?

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Today was one of the first days that I was headache free all day, (well mostly all day), a few twinges here and there, but honestly, after the whoppers of headaches I have been having, I felt like a different person today.  I was able to focus completely all day without the distraction of these headaches.  I haven’t been able to give my full effort in kickboxing, though I have continued to go, but tonight, I did all of it.  I forgot how good I could actually feel – that is how long it has been.  This whole weekend I just spent with my roommates, was an enormous amount of fun, but throughout it all, I had a headache.  They were of various degrees of pain, but the entire time it was there.  It made me feel like I wasn’t able to enjoy the time spent with them as much as possible, and it completely frustrated me.  They knew – and were completely sympathetic about it, (as is everyone I know).  Lots of tips and advice and come from everywhere and I appreciate all of it.

Perhaps today is a fluke…or…perhaps it is a new beginning to my old way of life.  Maybe tomorrow, I will go back to having a headache, but knowing how good I feel today, is going to make me put more of an effort in figuring out what is wrong.  The stress and exhaustion that has come from them has really put a damper on my life.  It has even made me a bit depressed and today made me snap out of my slump and feel energized!  I am hoping for a lot more days like today and getting back to my old self!

“Me Time”

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A few months ago I wrote about how I thought that some days were going to be difficult to find things to write about – and some days have been!!  Today was one of those days.  Not that I did not see kindness, but that I was feeling completely the opposite.

Dave and I have worked out our schedules along with the boys, so that we all are able to do our own thing while still finding the time to spend all together.  Dave has soccer a few times during the week, I have my kickboxing, the kids have their sports….we make it work.  For the most part, it usually does.  When we allow ourselves “me time” the entire family benefits.

Tonight, Drew had a big volcano project to finish for school.  He also had soccer practice.  He and I worked on it for hours after school.  This meant, no kickboxing for me and it made me upset.  Bitter actually.  Then, guilty for being upset about it.   Drew has been struggling in school for quite some time now and finally there was a homework assignment that he was interested in.  He looked for facts on the internet, he molded the clay for the volcano, mixed the paint and spouted out facts about volcanoes the entire time.  I tried to be enthusiastic with him – and I honestly was, but I needed a few extra hours in my day to fit everything in.  I (selfishly), wanted time for myself too, but I decided to skip my class and help him finish in time to get to his soccer practice with Dave.

I’m sure, (or at least I hope), that many parents have feelings like this.  Now that my boys are older, and DJ is responsible enough to take care of Drew, it has been easier, but it still gets complicated at times.  For me, guilt might be the biggest inhibitor.  I know that we all need to find the time to create a more balanced and happy life style for ourselves and our families but when I put myself first, I still get that guilty twinge.   Yet, those nights, that I do get to class, or when Dave has a game, I notice that we are better parents.  In that one hour of kickboxing,  I am able to clear my mind, not think about work, or housework and spend time with other adults so that when I come back to my home, I am refreshed and ready to be a mom again.

Tonight, as I wrote this blog, while Drew and Dave are at soccer practice, and DJ and I are home watching a hockey game on television, I realized that everyone is worthy of care and attention, myself included.   I need that class for my own well-being but the volcano is due tomorrow.  There will be more kickboxing classes.   Missing one class so that I could focus my attention on my kids, who are also deserving of my time, is not a sacrifice.  It is love.