Two Years

Two years ago today my mom died.  It was such a sad day, but we were all able to say goodbye to her and that gave us closure.  Last year, on the anniversary, we celebrated and it was a sad day.  Today was different.  I remembered her, I thought about her, I wore her favorite color, yellow, (thanks for the reminder Melanie,) and we ate her favorite thing – Chinese Food – for dinner.

It wasn’t a sad day.  It was actually a good day.  A happy day spent with friends and family.

I posted a picture of mom and me on Facebook this morning and wrote, “I can’t believe that today is two years.  Missing you mom.”  I was just remembering.  Just honoring her today.  The response was huge.  Everyone sending their love and memories of her.  People checking in on me and our family, but truly, we are doing well.  We all are.  We think about her everyday. Memories of her pop up everywhere. She is always around us and that brings us comfort.

I truly wasn’t sad today.  When I woke, the first thing I wanted to do was go back and read my blog from that awful week in March 2013.  I lay in my bed and read on my ipad. I read each day from when she stopped breathing on March 8th until the funeral on March 21st.  That was it.  Then, I got up and went on with the rest of the day.

That’s exactly what she would have wanted.  No sitting around weeping for her.  She would have hated that. Life goes on.  Our memories of her will last forever and she is always with us. ❤

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